My best friend

Hey, it's been a long time I did not update my blog. buzy updating my Tumblr.. Yeah. So, I'm gonna talk about my bestfriend today. So, her name is Nur Syazwani Bte Safi'ee. Call her Wani. Yeah she is nice, bubbly, loud, friendly, love to smile, have nice thick natural curls, 10 cm shorter than me. 20 kg lesser than my weight. Hah. K stop it. So, she likes this guys name Ali. Baba. Hah. Only Ali. She always act like u know, like, when your crush walk infront of your class, u will act something like you are not yourself. She said to be before that she don't want to have any crush on him but suddenly I think her feeings come back. Then, my friend name Sabrina ask for Ali's number from Ali's friend. So that she can give it to Wani. Before that, Wani asked me, if she should start the conversation with Ali first? But I say don't. She asked why. I just say please don't.But, she is so stubborn. Well, the reason why I don't want her to contact with Ali, is because, my friend, Nuraisah already told Ali in the first place that Wani likes him. But Ali said, he don't want. And why does Ali said that? Because he said, HE DON'T WANT TO DATE WITH OVER SIZED GIRLS. Like, wtf bro? She is chubby. NOT FAT. So that is the reason why. But, Wani did not know about this cause I don't want her to feel hurt. But then, evntho I try to stop her, she still don't want to listen. I'm fucking sad right now. I don't want my best friend feel hurt like I do. But she won't listen to me. Guess, I just leave it to her own decision. I can't force her. I've tried. But..Well.. SHe won't listen. Guess, I'll just wait what will happen next.

XOXO

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Forgive me

Harru... I must be strong.

End

So hey.

So, wanna say, it's the end of Alex story. He told me, he has already have girlfriend and it is fucking hurting me. I waited for him on skype after school everyday, I started to fall for him and he said he has a girlfriend. And I regret that I always waited for him at skype everyday without fail. He told me before that he likes me and loves me but this is what I get. Why? Now, I'm really sick and weak. I've lost my inhaler and my asthma keeps on coming, and it is fucking hurt. Gaaaah... Well, I only wish him all the best for his future and his girlfriend. I'll still love you as a friend. I've forgiven you but deep inside I'm still hurt.

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Hair please grow longer..

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When boring day comes

When boring day comes.

fasting month, one week has paased

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Super bored at home

Guys.

So hi again.
so I'm talking about relationships. So, I think, I don't want to find a guy who lives in my country. I wanna try other country. Why? Because guys here like, only look for body, figure, looks. Me? Fat ugly. Yeah, So, I just want the guy from another country. Yeah.. But If my love is in Singapore, I'll just go ahead. Person like me, when I really the guy, I realy like the guy very deep. But in relationship, I will love him deeper and hard to let it go. So yeah.. Girls been like saying all guys are the same. But, nah.. Not all. Sone attitude are the same but not all. Yeah.

Alex

So hello strangers.

So, it's been like 3 or 4 weeks plus I did not talk to Alex. yeah. He's from United States. Very far away. Many miles away. He is a swimmer. He, always going to his practise. So, Gonna talk about him today. So, erm... Yeah.. Starting to fall in love with him when ever I see him in Skype. But now. He did not even online for along time. My love starting to fade. I really do miss him. Yes, I do. I don't know what he's been up to. I don't know what get wrong. I don't know what did I do till we did not chat anymore. Whenever we talk, he always makes me special. I feel like, I am impportant to him.  But, now, I don't know what get wrong. Really miss him alot. Where are you? He hates me now? Does he have another girl? Does something went wrong between us? What did I do? Why? Why you left me alone here? Where are you when I need you the most? Everyday, without fail, I waited for you to online, but you did not even a single min you online. I feel so unwanted. Guess, I might not  be you dream girl anymore.

I wish I have the model look :/